To My Baby

I never knew you, but I did.

I never met you, but spent time with you.

I never had the chance to hold you, but I carried you.

There are so many things about you that I never got to know – the color of your hair and eyes, the joy of your smile, the facets of your personality

But there are so many things I do know about you – you don’t like sugar; it makes you sick.  And you inherited my passion for hamburgers and Rueben sandwiches.

You kept me up at night and gave the term “aches and pains” a whole new meaning.

You made my skin look great, made each new day a wonder to experience, and softened my heart to everything.

You would have been mischievous and curious, like your parents, no doubt,

And we would have loved you fiercely and unconditionally.

I can hardly believe the short time I had with you is already gone, but I am forever changed by my brief encounter with you. 

You gave us hope and joy beyond belief. 

You gave us the wonder of creating life and watching it grow inside me. 

What an unbelievable miracle you made us a part of!

Your departure made us grieve and experience loss at a whole new level.

You left me with a giant hole in my heart, but I’m not so sure I want to fill it.

There is no way to replace you; there is only grief to bear

But the sadness is a reminder of the blessing you were

And that is not something I want to forget.

I’ll wear the scar of your loss always, just as my heart is forever changed by the love you awakened in me.