Some Feelings

It's been over a week since I posted and I have that writing bug that won't let me be until I spill my guts on paper, or the internet in this case. It's been a rough week for me. There have been family issues that are beyond difficult that I have had to deal with and there have been school and clinic issues that have not been pleasant. However, there have also been rays of beautiful sunshine that have filled my life in the last week, and have created a nice sort of balance for me. I was Aspen this past weekend and was completely awed by the vast natural beauty there. It's no wonder people love to go there. It's absolutely gorgeous up there. Honestly, I could not sum it up into words if I tried my best. Mr. Darcy and I visited Maroon Bells, which are two of Colorado's 14,000 ft. peaks. The trip was one of the best I have ever had. The mountains are so beautiful and imposing and the scenery is breathtaking. It's so serene and peaceful, so inviting. I felt as though I could sit by the lake and just gaze upon the mountains for the rest of my life. I found myself saying, "You did good, God," as I looked around me. It was absolutely wonderful. I had to return from my sweet repose and start my classes again. It was hard to return, but necessary. This weeks classes have been very demanding with piles of readings and studying and homework to do. I awoke this morning not wanting to go to school at all. I tried to get up and a sick feeling kept pulling me back to my bed. I was so tired and so worn out. I decided to call Mr. Darcy and see what he had to suggest. He talked me out of bed and offered to drive me to school so I could get there on time. He was wonderful. Seeing him and letting him push me along was a big help in getting me started on this important day for me. I needed to go to school, but I had no drive to do so. I am so thankful for him and all he does to help me. On a side note, I am wearing jeans today that I have tried to fit into for over a year. I am so proud of the fact that I have been able to start on the road of getting in shape and am starting to see real results. Hooray me!!! So, I made it through this day and am almost done with the week. Although it's been a bit on the rough side and I am somewhat tattered from it I have learned some things and have a better perspective of what I need to do to succeed here in my new life. This in encouraging to me because it means I have not suffered in vain and I am still excited about what this new life has to offer me.