Nothing Left to Say

What do you say when there is nothing left to say? When you've cried all you can, prayed all you can, thought all you can and said everything you can what do you do? It would appear that being silent is the only option left. Sometimes it is good to talk things over and a lot can be said for keeping the lines of communication open, but there are times when silence is the best option. There are times when communication won't change anything, won't help anything, and could possibly cause more problems and thus is better left out. I'm at that point right now. I wish I could just turn everything off for at least a week and not have to deal or interact with anyone, or at least not be in certain situations with certain people. It's funny: I have quite the imagination and I am known for thinking through every possible scenario every situation could present before I decide on anything, but somehow I am always blindsided by the one thing I never thought about; the one scenario I never imagined myself being in and yet here I am. How I wish my imagination could have prepared me for some of the things I've experienced. But, alas, it hasn't and I am still presented with them and left to deal with them, and deal with them I will. My outlook on things and my view of things has changed considerably in certain areas but now I am spent and there is nothing left to think, nothing left to say. I am tired of the things going round and round in my mind, tired of the things that hurt and prick me with every thought of them, tired of fighting the waves of pain and frustration that seem to intermittently roll over me. I'm tired and I have no desire the speak. So, I'm going to quit. I'm going to step back from all the craziness and wearisome things that have been happening and I am going to take a much-needed break. I don't know how long the break will last or if I will even return in some ways, but I know that when there is nothing left to say and nothing left to do the best thing is to just not say or do anything. I know that nothing comes from nothing and I do not expect the silence to work any great magic but perhaps the solitude will help relieve the pain and bring into focus some of the many things that right now appear so out of focus.